Monthly Archives: January 2024

Verge of a Dream: How I met you

Near the block where
I grew up
I don’t know where I’d
Meet you
Across the gym
In your prom dress
With someone
Else
At work knowing
More than I could
Hope to.
I don’t know where
I’d meet you.
Without asking since
Asking brings rebuffs
Though they’re little
As if in a cart
Marked down.
Every one is sweetly
Given, no comment
of reservation,
Then, maybe to
Remember, you play,
The notes
Reminders each of
A moment between
Uncertainties that
Was happy. Now
You are not unhappy
But not like me
Blessed and blissful
In the moments
Remembering how I
Met you.

RLB 1/29/2024

Peak finding functions

Peak finding functions are certainly not the end all and be all of assessing peaks in AFM images of surfactant protein D. I am totally disappointed in how they work.  It is so clear that depending upon measures that have preceeded a peak and how big a peak is has LITTLE at all to do with what nature does with proteins (specifically, irregularly placed bumps and twists of varying sizes that can be seen by eye with electron microscopy and AFM and other microscopic media). Not a single peak finding function that I have found has any real comparison to what a trained eye can find (at least at this time). Since the user determines the robotic approach, peaks can vary from 4 to 40 when the eye can see about 15 in a dodecamer regularly.

When I see the divisions of peaks, the numbered peaks, the missed peaks that signal processing produces i think to myself. Why that, or why not this.

Sadly this makes everything I have tried to figure out about unbiased counting, height, width and valley depths, using image processing and peak finding, in surfactant protein D trimers (and dodecamers) is pretty much NOT verifying anything except the fact that they dont work.

Being adaptable mentally just is still a human trait……. how much longer, I dont know. Training seems still to lag behind human abilities.

Things I have noticed:

1– in the trimers, it appears that multiple peaks clustered (maybe 2 or 3) seem to happen when there are (as in the case of the glycosylation site (published data) the three trimers at the glycosylation site have shallow staggered peaks, as if there is a rotary positioning. Seems logical that the lumpy effect would be found when rotating a repeating event (like glycosylation).
2– signal processing functions are not very adaptable, they do not see pattern well, they ignore some peaks and find others in a way that is inflexible

3– N term peak height in the dodecamers and higher multimers shows variation in N term attachments.

Verge of a Dream: Friends for Life

That red brick grammar
School is no longer there.
A lefty, steve hit a soft
Ball firmly off its
Upper level wall.
Only knowing him
slightly, thought he’d
make something of
himself with that
hard high drive that
went farther (it was not
further.., there’s the
grammar learned at
Levitt avenue school). I
thought he’d do
something in life though
I only knew him lightly.
Not even the house he
was raised in
the small town pretending
To be of Scottish descent
I guess
I have no sense of what
success is…or whether
it is sweetly fragrant
though a bust
of burt Lancaster in
a hall of fame would
be titled, my friends
from childhood are
friends for life.
I know that hitting
A ball apparently
occasionally hit well
seems to be a substitute
for success as memory
substitutes for kids
I didn’t know well
enough to still be friends.